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A farewell to girlhood

by Sara Idani

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1.
Shy 04:07
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Shy (Sara Idani) Ever since you caught my eye (with your sweetheart smile) I knew that I was doomed to lose (I’m not the one you’d chose) I’m not made to conqure Competitions makes me scared First impressions is not my game I wanna tell you how you’ve left a mark on my heart but I stay silent don’t know where to start ‘Cause I’m shy I am shy, I am shy Yeah I’m to shy to look into your eyes oho mhm I’m to shy to look into your eyes oho mhm I’m to shy to look into your eyes I you could look inside my soul youd see Someone you could learn to love I would never hurt you I would never walk away but I stay silent all the same Oh what a shame I wanna know you but I don’t dare to look into your eyes wish I could tell you how much I care for you But I’m shy I am shy, I am shy But I will try to look into your eyes oho mhm I will try to look into your eyes oho mhm I will to look into your eyes instr I wanna know you but I don’t dare to look into your eyes wish I could tell you how much I care for you But I’m shy I am shy, I am shy I am shy, I am shy I am shy, I am shy But I will try to look into your eyes oho mhm I will try to look into your eyes oho mhm I will to look into your eyes
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It's all about him 03:08
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It’s all about him (Sara Idani) I thought we where friends that we would always be thick as thieves the perfect team you and me Now you’ve found a boy To you he is the one said and done You’re all set but now I must object ‘Cause since you got together I have not seen you forever ‘cause you make it all revolve around him And now every time I meet you I just don’t know how to great you ‘cause you never tell me how YOU have been It’s all about him, him, him, him, him, him, him It’s all about him, him, him, him, It’s a fight I cannot win It’s all about him I bring him around And when I hang with you He comes to always in reach like a leech I do my best I struggle to be kind fake a smile But it’s getting tough and soon I’ll have enough ‘Cause since you got together I have not seen you forever ‘cause you make it all revolve around him And now every time I meet you I just don’t know how to great you ‘cause you never tell me how YOU have been It’s all about him, him, him, him, him, him, him It’s all about him, him, him, him, It’s a fight I cannot win It’s all about him And I miss you my friend I miss the love that we had But I’m hopeful I know you’ll be back And then we’ll be together and it won’t be him forever once you’ve seen a little more of his flaws Then I’ll wrap my head around it I’ll be happy that you’ve found him Once I see you’re still the same deep with in And not all about him, him, him, him, him, him, him Not all about him, him, him, him, ‘Cause it’s a fight I cannot win Yeah it’s all about him, him, him, him, him, him, him It’s all about him, him, him, him, It’s a fight I cannot win It’s all about him
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Love letter 03:35
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Love letter (Sara Idani) I’m so happy that I got you No more sadness, no more feeling blue I called all around the world Never thought I would be heard That my greatest love to be Just were right in front of me Telling me you’re here to stay Halleluja, how I love you look in my eyes you’ll see it's all true When I’m with you I’m alright You turn darkness into light Keep me warm when I feel cold Now I can’t wait to grow old You bring colors to the grey I never thought I’d have this breakthrough Not in a million years of time So many times I almost lost my mind and now I’ve found you I don’t want to live without you Just can’t quit you and I don’t want to Now my life makes much more sense I let down my strong defense Like a blind that now can see You bring out the best in me Don’t know what else I can say instr. I never thought I’d have this breakthrough Not in a million years of time So many times I almost lost my mind and now I’ve found you I don’t want to live without you Just can’t quit you and I don’t want to Now my life makes much more sense I let down my strong defense Like a blind that now can see You bring out the best in me Don’t know what else I can say
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I'll never write a lovesong (I promise) 04:02
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I’ll never write a lovesong (I promise) (Sara Idani) I’ll never tell How much I long for you to hold me I use my shell Hide all the cracks Can’t let you see me So I toss your drink Cramp your style Fake a smile Play my games and you do to I know you do So I call you names Turn my back Fade to black Let you think I’m made of steel But it’s not real I promise, I promise, I promise I’ll never write a lovesong telling you how sweet you are I promise, I promise, I promise I’ll never write a lovesong Will not let it go that far I’ll never tell How much I miss you when you leave me That I’m in hell Whenever I don’t have you near me O, I just pretend like you are see-through O, I let you know I hate you even if it’s not true I promise, I promise, I promise I’ll never write a lovesong telling you how sweet you are I promise, I promise, I promise I’ll never write a lovesong Will not let it go that far I promise, I promise, I promise I’ll never write a lovesong telling you how sweet you are I promise, I promise, I promise I’ll never write a lovesong Will not let it go that far You don’t know, I won’t show What you mean to me It’s not meant to be Feelings hide, deep inside Build upon this lie let this sweet love die You don’t know, I won’t show (I promise, I promise, I promise) (I’ll never write a lovesong) What you mean to me It’s not meant to be (telling you how sweet you are) Feelings hide, deep inside (I promise, I promise, I promise) (I’ll never write a lovesong) Build upon this lie let this sweet love die (Will not let it go that far) You don’t know, I won’t show (I promise, I promise, I promise) (I’ll never write a lovesong) What you mean to me It’s not meant to be (telling you how sweet you are) Feelings hide, deep inside (I promise, I promise, I promise) (I’ll never write a lovesong) Build upon this lie let this sweet love die (Will not let it go that far) I promise
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Bad orbit 06:35
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Bad orbit (Sara Idani) Love had us going But it doesn’t anymore I want my freedom But you don’t want to let me go You’re the faces passing by The figure lurking in the dark You’re in all the books I read The words that I write Never once are you out of my sight You got me in a bad orbit You got me in a bad orbit I need to get out of this Merry-go-round But I keep spinning round and around Bad orbit Bad orbit You make me the villain Though the real crime was done by you Drowning me in guilt with your sweetness that’s not true You’re the center of my thoughts And you’re frightening me to death Playing mind games with my head Slowly draining my soul until there is nothing left You got me in a bad orbit You got me in a bad orbit I need to get out, to be free and unbound But you keep spinning me round and around Bad orbit Bad orbit instr You’re the center of my thoughts And you’re frightening me to death Playing mind games with my head Slowly draining my soul until there is nothing left I need to get out, to be free and unbound But you keep spinning me round and around You got me in a bad orbit You got me in a bad orbit I need to get out, to be free and unbound But you keep spinning me round and around Bad orbit Bad orbit
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Not enough 03:23
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Not enough (Sara Idani) Could have been much smarter Won’t do with other than A:s Could have been much stronger Can’t run without a red face Could have been much faster But I just stumble and fall No medals hanging on my wall I can’t get it right when I try it all just turns to shit Life is one big competition and now I’m losing it I’m losing I’m not enough I’m not enough I’m not enough I’m just one big fucking failure It’s what everybody says It’s what I say I’m not enough I’m not enough Could have been more pretty I’m Big Foot with raven fur Could have been much bolder But I just wait for my turn Could have been more popular But I’m just awkward with groups It pains me straight to my roots I can’t get it right when I try it all just turns to shit Life is one big competition and now I’m losing it I’m losing I’m not enough (Can’t deal with all that pressure) (this is too much for me) I’m not enough (The goal’s too high to measure) (It’s clear for all to see) I’m not enough I’m just one big fucking failure It’s what everybody says It’s what I say I’m not enough I’m not enough I’m running as fast as I can But I’m getting nowhere Keeping thinking I should be enough But life keeps kicking me down I’m running as fast as I can But I’m getting nowhere Keeping thinking I should be enough But life keeps kicking me down I’m not enough (Can’t deal with all that pressure) (this is too much for me) I’m not enough (The goal’s too high to measure) (It’s clear for all to see) I’m not enough I’m just one big fucking failure It’s what everybody says It’s what I say I’m not enough I’m not enough
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Status quo 03:59
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Status quo (Sara Idani) Wear all the cool clothes Say the right stuff and pray that no one will call your bluff We may look pretty but We’re dead as walls Marching like puppets through the locker dressed halls Oh the game goes on and on We’ll stay the same until school is done Oh look at us go We keep on dancing in this freakshow Must go with the flow So play your role, stay low don’t mess with the status quo status quo Are you the cool kid? Are you a nerd? You have to chose order can’t be disturbed Just find your people and stick with them slap on that label and be safe once again Look the same but miles apart don’t tell me we’re the same at heart Oh look at us go We keep on dancing in this freakshow Must go with the flow So play your role, stay low don’t mess with the status quo status quo instr Are you the cool kid? Are you a nerd? You have to chose order can’t be disturbed Just find your people and stick with them slap on that label and be safe once again Look the same but miles apart don’t tell me we’re the same at heart Oh look at us go We keep on dancing in this freakshow Must go with the flow So play your role, stay low don’t mess with the status quo status quo status quo (oh) status quo status quo status quo (oh)
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You're erased 03:50
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You’re erased (Sara Idani) Now you’ve really gone too far I can see what kind you are You cheated, you lied always acting like a clown always letting me down I was scared, insecure and I needed someone who cared but you never cared at all well you don’t have to do it anymore I’m leaving you (You’re erased) I am cutting all my ties to you (You’re erased) There’s no way that I can see this through (You’re erased) The limit is reached (You’re erased) I can’t stand you anymore (You’re erased) Take a look at what you’ve done Stealing all light from my sun Now I’m faded, now I’m pale Just a shadow of myself ‘Cause you put me on a shelf But I won’t stay here anymore I’m getting out (You’re erased) I am cutting all my ties to you (You’re erased) There’s no way that I can see this through (You’re erased) The limit is reached (You’re erased) I can’t stand you anymore (You’re erased) Now you’ve crossed the line one time too far (You’re erased) Now I see what kind you really are (You’re erased) And don’t call me “baby” (You’re erased) I don’t love you anymore (You’re erased) But how could you hurt me like you did I did love you But now I guess we’re through I am cutting all my ties to you There’s no way that I can see this through The limit is reached (You’re erased) Now you’ve crossed the line one time too far (You’re erased) Now I see what kind you really are (You’re erased) And don’t call me “baby” (You’re erased) I don’t love you anymore (You’re erased) I’m telling you that you’re erased
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Real world 04:48
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Real world (Sara Idani) I am telling you You need to get a clue You seem to think fortune will drop down from the sky That stars will shine your way with zero bills to pay It’ll all work out and you won’t have to lift a finger But that’s no way of living It’s a dream that will not hold You’re no Scrooge McDuck soon you’ll run out of luck So I need you to wake up Welcome to the real world Step into reality Better do your homework Stop it with the vanity You must see Nothing comes from nothing You walk the mile Welcome to the real world where nothing ever comes for free Please don’t think I’m mean But you’re living in a dream Waiting for Prince Charming While life keeps passing by Sure it’s not your fault But now you’re an adult Time to wake up And start to make a living for yourself Stop thinking like a baby You must learn to pay your dues It’s one ugly truth You can’t live on your youth Now your golden days are through Welcome to the real world Step into reality Better do your homework Stop it with the vanity You must see Nothing comes from nothing You walk the mile Welcome to the real world where nothing ever comes for free It’s survival of the fitest You take your place in line Learn to make a living 9 to 5 and you’ll be fine It won’t be easy But you need it So pack your suitcase Say bye now Leave Neverland behind Welcome to the real world Step into reality Better do your homework Stop it with the vanity You must see Nothing comes from nothing You walk the mile Welcome to the real world where nothing ever comes for free Welcome to the real world Step into reality Better do your homework Stop it with the vanity You must see Nothing comes from nothing You walk the mile Welcome to the real world where nothing ever comes for free
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Where do I go? 03:37
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Where do I go? (Sara Idani) Where do I go from here? How do I find the strenght to rise with every fall? How can I face all my fears I have no clue no clue at all How can I change my course When every word is said and all the deeds are done I’m lost in a sea of remorse and I sink with the setting sun Can I go on? Or stay? I start to question every choice I’ve ever made And all that I’ve learned on the way Seems so distant it starts to fade I’ve lead myself astray I’m lost can’t find my way So I say Where do I go on from here Find the strength to face my fears Tell me how to change my course and live my life without remorse should I go or should I stay I have lost my way Where do I go? Where do I go? Where do I go? Where do I go? Where do I go? Where do I go? Where do I go? Where do I go? Where do I go?

about

My debut album. This album is all about girlhood. About love, peer-pressure, good girl complex, friends and growing up.
Funded through crowdfunding.

A big thank you to Hanna Ögren for inspiring me to use crowdfunding and for supporting me all the way through the process. Another extra thank you to Josefine Egerszegi and the Boss Bitches group for giving me inspiration and courage to go on when it felt hard.

And a huge, warm thank you to all of you who backed the project. This album would never have been made without you. You’re the best!

And last but not least I wanna thank my family for loving and supporting me throughout everything

Love you

Sara

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released December 9, 2021

Written, produced and mixed by Sara Idani

Mastering by Frida Claeson Johansson

Artwork by Josefine Egerszegi

Label: Windsång Music

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Sara Idani is a singer, songwriter and producer based in Sweden. An independent artist who follow her own way Sara's music is Max Martin-pop with a heavy dose of 80s sounds with modulated flutes and thoughtful lyrics that is often inspired by nerd culture and human-right subjects.Sara embraces her own weirdness and strives to encourage her listeners to do the same. ... more

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